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Apa yang kalian lihat saat becermin?

Berhadapan dengan cermin, saya sering sekali menyemangati diri sendiri. “You can do it, Ri. You absolutely can do it. Don’t give up”. I always motivate myself. Karena saya sering sekali merasa putus asa, maka saya harus membekali diri dengan asupan motivasi lebih banyak.

Anyway, I watched Robocop this evening with the one and only Kak Aan. We talked a lot in taxi that took me home. It’s been a long time since the last time I had such a deep convo with someone, talked about everything I want. Kak Aan is smart. Though we sometimes have different perspective about something. He is a kind of person who always could follow wherever I drive the convo into without saying “why you asking that?”.

I am the person who always asking that kind of question.

Now you know what kind of girl I am, do you?

It’ll be really nice if I spend every weekend meeting someone and just talk randomly. Friends that can answer all my questions. Even the most childish question like ‘why the sky is blue?’ to the most difficult question like ‘how do you know that writing is your passion?’.

Without asking. Without laugh at me. Without being ‘are you sure that you’re asking that? Or you just testing me?’. Without judging.

I love my life. Alhamdulillah. Segala puji hanya pada Allah.

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NB : Path masih belum bagus.

Sick

Hari keempat di kasur. Demam belum menjauh pergi. Batuk dan sakit kepala semakin membelit, tak ada gencatan senjata. Sekarang saya di rumah sendirian, katanya Bapak sebentar lagi datang. Rasanya seperti Kevin Mc Calister di Home Alone 4. Tapi bedanya Kevin kena cacar, saya kena demam.

Terpaksa hari ini saya absen mengajar. Siswaku pasti bingung karena gurunya diganti melulu. Tapi mau diapa lagi? Masa saya mau paksakan datang dengan kondisi seperti ini? Ntar tambah parah. Untung teman-teman kantor mendukung dan mendoakan agar saya lekas sembuh.

Haa, saya sudah lama gak sakit lama seperti ini. Paling cuma dua hari, sembuh. Ini sudah sejak Kamis dan tiap saya bangun pagi pasti kepala kayak dihantam godam, dan tubuh panas membara.

Mama panik. Sejak Jumat beliau merawatku dengan sabar sekali. Suapi makan, suapi obat, beliin buah, dan semuanya. Saya akan menikahi pria yang kalau saya sakit, bisa merawatku sesabar Ibu.

Well, oke then. Doakan saya lekas sembuh ya. Aamiin.

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New Colleague

Good morning! This is Saturday and I should come to office but unfortunately I got fever since yesterday. Cough, runny nose and dizzy those really hurts me so I can’t teach my students. I think even this posting looks messy.

So, I just want to post picture with my colleagues. Me with the red skirt.

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Cheers!
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Wajah Wajah Asing

Akhirnya wajah familiar itu menjadi asing
Teman yang dulu dekat kini jauh mengapung
Apa yang kekal?
Selain kenangan yang bahkan akan terus tergerus rubuh

Aku tahu yang menjaga kita tetap utuh adalah rasa rindu
Lalu bagaimana jika rindu pun lelap gelap lenyap?

Dan ketika kenangan dan rindu tak ada lagi, apa yang merekatkan kita?
Sungguhpun jarak membentang sepulau, satu samudera, berlapis langit.

Bukankah apa yang utuh di hati takkan terganti oleh yang tak punya hati?

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It Hurts But It’s Memorable

Saya sudah lupa kapan tepatnya saya mengerjakan sesuatu sampai menangis. Sampai tadi sore, saat teaching session ku kelar. Kemudian Ms Aini and Mr Indra membeberkan what I must improve and fix about my teaching technic. It hurts when Mr I bilang apa yang saya ajarkan itu “kosong”. It means nothing. It keeps echoing until now in my head.

I cried in the bathroom.

I was stupid.

I mean Riana, it’s been 3 weeks and tak ada perbaikan yang signifikan? Please dule. But what to tell? Grammar is hard. Teaching grammar is the hardest part ever. Besides, I am only 3 weeks old there. Huhuhuuuu. God please help.

Anyway, last night I taught Mom how to pronounce “fried rice”. So when she went to canteen this morning, she showed off that words to her friends. Hahaha.

Semoga semua worthed ya Allah. I really love to learn English so I must to work really hard for this.

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All or Nothing

If you love me
For what you see,
Only your eyes would be
In love with me.

If you love me
For what you’ve heard,
Then you would love me
For my words.

If you love
My heart and mind,
Then you would love me,
For all that I’m.

But if you don’t love
My every flaw,
Then you mustn’t love me-
Not at all.

Lang Leav in
Love and Misadventure, 2013

Dream

Last night I had a weird dream. Like usual.

I can’t remember all the details now. It’s blurry and scatters. But one scene I remember is Mr. Indra was there. He said that the sun was rising in the east. He enjoyed the view of sky. Blue redish sky. So magical. So beautiful. Next thing I knew is I was standing beside him and just looked at the same view with him. Side by side.

You know we can’t control our dream. I found it really strange, though. I was  thinking about Mr. Indra when I awake only because I remember he gave me so many things to improve in my teaching technique.

So why on earth he came in to my dream last night?

I am having stomachache. It hurts. My stomach keeps growling. 😦

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