Rahma said on the telephone that day,
“I am not afraid with the future. I want to let God surprises me”,
And I was like,
“Damn, she is right”
I was afraid of my future (well, who’s not?). I was afraid about my career, about my love story, even about the death.
But God. The Almighty, always surprised me. Somehow, I don’t like or I don’t understand the Plan. Sometimes I get angry if something happens unplannned or something happens outside my coverage.
“Dear God, what do you plan on me? Why me? Why did this happen? Why now?”
Those questions I always ask, always remained unanswered.
But then, day by day, I accept it with my sincere feeling. And I understand all the things.
And when I accept it, I am happy again. I relieved.
So I want to be surprised. I want to accept all the things God planned for me.
I hope I won’t be afraid about the future anymore. Because Allah is the Most Gracious. And nothing I need to worry about when I give all of my life in God’s hand.