10 Things I’d Do in 2016

Happy New Yeaaar! 

Here are 10 things I would do in 2016. You can say these are resolutions or missions or aspirations or anything. Here we go.

1. Be a Morning Person

I want to be a morning person forever. I want to be able to do Subuh prayer every 5 am. And not to sleep again after. 

2. Travel Often

I want to travel to many places I’ve never been before. 

3. Have a Stable Relationship

Cliche, huh? What I mean stable here is yes, of course. I’d like to get married. I know this is one of the things I couldn’t handle, but I wonder Allah might hear and might say “Granted, Riana!”. K might consider to propose me, either, this year.🙏

4. Read MORE Books

Last year I was a lousy reader. In 2016 I’d like to read 35 books. Including Al-Qur’an.

5. Learn How to Drive a Car

Not a matic one but a car with 3 pedals and gears.

6. Get a Scholarship

This is also one of the things I couldn’t handle and I wish Allah also said “Granted!” for. 

7. Write MORE

Not only reviews but also short story, poems or who knows? a novel won’t be too high, yes?
8. Get a JOB

Yeah, of course. 

9. Chef Wannabe

I don’t know why but since I know K, I started to learn how to make some food in the kitchen. I cooked spaghetti for him once and I made macaroni schotel for my sisters today. Cooking is just so fun and I want to do more trials of food, more! 

10. Involve in Some Projects

Life has been so dull lately. I missed my college year when I was actively participate in some movie projects in my town. Hopefully, there are cool people who would invite me to involve to their projects. Either it’s charity or arts or anything, I’d be honour to be a part of it. 

So, what are your 10 things? Tell me! 

RI 

Last Day Teaching

Today was my last day teaching my kiddos. No goodbyes, no tears, or hugs or anything. Actually, I didn’t feel anything. 

K was thankful. 

Why? I asked.

I don’t want you to be sad. I want you to feel good so you can let them go so you can move on. He replied. 

So for you who might wonder whether I had plans after this, I’d answer you with  “I’m afraid I don’t”-

I gave up my career as a journalist in 2013 then I started the new one as a teacher in 2014. Now I quit. again. Without any plans ahead. Again. 

Since my sister’s got married last  October, Mom now is putting her expectation on me, financially. Dad is no longer work. He is not able working due to his bad diabetic. Seeing my condition now, make me more miserable. 

But I’m sure there’s must be something precious awaits me there. 

So God. Please. 

RI 

Full of Love

If I die young, I’d be known as a lover. I want everybody who will have arrived here, will know that when I was alive, my life was filled with love and only love. 
I love my parents; Ma, Pa. 
I love all my irritating and annoying sisters:  Nong, Ayu, Long, Mellong, Qanita. 

I love K, the love of my life. 

I love my bestfriends whom I can’t tell one by one. There are too many! But of course, Dini- Nita – Rahma- Tya- Isti. They are forever going to be mi mon ami! 
Even when I am about to sleep now, I want to forgive myself. For not making the plans and for making mistakes. I want to make sure that myself awares of the amazing “everything-will-be-fine” quotes. 

Heal inside yourself by forgiving your own. Be happy. Be loved. 

RI

Kata-Kata Menjelang Tengah Malam

Pukul dua pagi lewat sepuluh menit. Biasanya saya sudah tidur sejak sejam yang lalu. Tapi hey, it’s holy day for some people who are Christian enough, and luckily we had four days off! And mom’s not here. Everybody’s been sleeping since 11. So, screw with Rhoma Irama, i’m having my stay-up-late post!

Tengah malam

Kata-kata lahir 

Dalam kepala, dalam ruang

Mereka kadang bersuara lebih keras dibanding putaran kipas tua yang masih terus berputar. 

Ambang batas

kata-kata
Lebur

dalam pikiran
kemudian 

Pudar, pendar. 

Lari
Tak perlu kujelaskan 

Hanya itu yang kudengar

Kata-kata menjelang tengah malam.
Setelah kutuliskan

Mereka seharusnya bisa membiarkanku tidur

RI

It’s Okay

It’s okay not to be okay, Ri. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to stop and wait for a while. 

It’s okay if your life is different with your friend’s, sister’s, colleagues’.

It’s okay to be miserable.

It’s okay to be ordinary.

It’s okay.

It’s okay.

Everything’s gonna be just fine.

Don’t let words make you down.

RI

Clearer Mind

When K and I have fights, he wants to finish it right in that moment. 
I am different.

I tend to need some time to think. The next day, I will always think with clearer mind. That’s the moment I can talk to him. 
Sejauh ini, K selalu ikut mauku. Kalau aku lagi gak mau ngomong apapun, dia akan sabar menunggu besok sampe aku mau bahas masalah kita. 

RI

Moon’s Tale

Kisah Moon

Tadi malam saat bertelponan dengan K, dia cerita tentang Kisah Moon. Moon itu boneka yang dia kasih ke aku. Boneka karakter LINE, tau kan?

K kasih Moon ke aku pas dia jemput aku dari kantor. Gak seperti biasanya, malam itu dia bawa tas ransel gede banget dan pas aku tanya mau kemana, dia gak jawab jelas. Akhirnya karena aku nanya-nanya dia terus, dia akhirnya nyerah dan bilang sebenarnya dia mau ngasih aku sesuatu. Dan karna aku gak bisa penasaran lama-lama, akhirnya di Arumdalu, tempat makan langganan kita, dia kasih keluar bonekanya.

“Boneka??”
“Iya”,

Tadi malam K cerita, boneka putih itu sudah lama dia simpan di kamarnya di asrama. Boneka itu sebenarnya hadiah beli handphone windows punya Abahnya. Pas K sarankan bonekanya dikasih ke Dita, adiknya, Abahnya malah bilang gak usah.

“Gak usah kasih ke Dita. Kamu simpan aja nanti dikasih ke pacar kamu”,

Waktu itu K belum punya siapa-siapa buat dikasihin boneka. Jadi dia mutusin untuk tetap simpan boneka itu dan menunggu seseorang yang akan jadi pemilik Moon berikutnya.

Which is finally, he handed it to me.

“Moon itu sudah lama kusimpan. Kupikir nanti mau kukasih ke perempuan yang tepat”,

Which is unpredictably, ME.

Itu cuma boneka sih, iya. Tapi hahaha, rasanya karena disimpan dalam kotaknya lengkap, dan dijagain, dan akhirnya dikasih ke aku, jadinya malah more than just a doll.

RI