We always hope that it will last. But it doesn’t. The weird thing is, no matter how awful our last trial, we will always try to get the courage to begin again, to start over again, to have the trial and error with a completely different person once more.
It is hurtful when we know that we are not worthed to fight for till the end. Yet, we still high our hope that maybe if it didn’t work with A, it might work with B. And then, the same pattern happens once again. Then we start to believe, maybe, we are too awful for everyone, we are not deserve to be loved.
In fact, you are.
So, it’s time now to make yourself in peace, Ri. Forgive him whoever has hurted you, taken you for granted, cheated on your trust.
Because love is that weird. And there must be someone out there who will love you unconditionally, who wants to say “Agree” to all your Terms and Conditions, to love you hard with all his heart, and to marry you, and gives you nothing but love and happiness.