Teaching Again


Akhirnya kesempatan untuk mengajar di sekolah datang lagi. Efektif per Juli tahun ajaran depan saya insya Allah akan mulai mengajar lagi. Sekolahnya dimana? Masih rahasia. Besok baru mau teken kontrak. Jika semua lancar, saya tentu saja akan menulis update nya disini, atau di blog bugururiana.

Lam, my husband, also get his new job starts on June! Where? It’s also still between us. I’m going to tell you when he starts working there. Hint: it’s a big TV company in Indonesia.

We are so grateful and thankful for the blessings Allah SWT rewarded us. They are too many we lost count. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah.

Half a year now.

Ramadhan day 7. I’m counting now the day to visit my family in Makassar for Eid al Fitr. I have new family this year, my husband’s family. It would be a different Eid for me and for my husband,  too. We will spend the last week of Ramadhan in Makassar, insya Allah and a week after Eid. So we have 2 weeks to relax before going back to real struggle in Jakarta.

Pray for us, my friends. Thank you for always supporting us together.


Berumah Tangga

First of all, happy new year 2019! Can you believe it’s already January 2019? Time runs really fast, doesn’t it?

It’s been 2 weeks since I have arrived here in Jakarta. My Mom and Dad accompanied me coming here to see my rented house that I’m going to live in with my husband, Lam. They came back last Sunday to Makassar. I was a bit worried and terrified at first, knowing the fact that I wasn’t going to be in one roof with them anymore.

However, Lam has been a really wonderful husband that anyone has ever asked for. He is so understanding, so kind, so helpful, so loving and he talks gently at me. He works as hard as horse every morning till evening. And when he comes home, after we have dinner together, he plays Mobile Legend for hours. I can’t complain. I don’t want to, either.

How about me?
I’m trying to survive. I cook, I take care Lam’s clothes, I prepare him meals, I clean our house, I do the dishes, I eat, I watch movies, I write, I read, and I look for a job. In Jakarta, everybody is looking for a living. I can’t annoy Lam when he’s at work. Sometimes I am bored as hell, sometimes I cry for homesick. But what can I say? That’s the life I am living now. I have to make my own new comfort zone. I have to be here supporting my husband. I have to be useful at least for him because that’s what a wife should do, beside her husband. Nowhere else.


Two Days To Go

Two days to go insya Allah, and I’m leaving for Jakarta to see my husband, finally!

Rasanya semakin dekat semakin berat. Rindu semakin tidak terkendali. Barusan saya mengirim pesan kepadanya,

“I don’t want to be apart with you for a long period like this anymore, ever again.” and he simply replied, “Okay.”

I can’t do long distance relationship. I might be too weak to survive. I always want to be close with the one I love.

I miss him. I miss him more now, because I stay in his family house in Antang. I have been here for three days. Tomorrow I’ll be back home in Telkomas, packing everything in suitcases and flying to him on Monday afternoon.

Dear Allah,

please make it easier for us, because nothing is easy unless You make it that way.

Thank you


The Birthday Boy

Dear my nearly-future husband,

This is the day, 31 years ago, you began existing. This is the day when God disposed everything about you; your destiny, your fate, people you’ll meet and the woman you’re going to marry. I know you don’t care about your birthday but I do care. I care because this is an important day. I care because without it, I might not be where I am now and without it, we might not be together like we are now.

I love you for so many reasons. I love you because you believe in me. I love you because you make me laugh with silly jokes. I love you because you are a passionate, hardworking and kindhearted person. I love you because you tell me I’m pretty with zero makeup. I love you because you can handle all my complains, my madness, my pms and my childish drama. I love you because you buy me my favorite books. I love you because you call and videocall me between your break time at work. I love you because we’re so different, we have almost nothing in common, yet you still want to spend your lifetime with me.

I love you more than the books I have in my shelf and my cute dresses I have in my wardrobe put altogether. I love you more than the guy who invented Indomie flavour. I love you more than the love of Jack to Rose. Thankyou for allowing me to be your partner in crime, in life and to be your plus 1 in every events you’ll attend in the future.

Happy birthday, Lam.

I’m so thankful that you were born. Our great adventure shortly begins and I can’t wait to see what our future holds.

Forever and always,



I wrote this letter in his 31st birthday last month, on 29th October 2018, when we were still engaged. I wrote it and read it to him by phone call. I couldn’t give him any sweet surprise or gifts or anything. I didn’t bake him a cake. I wish I could give him more than this in his next birthdays.

Marriage Life Episode Two

How hard could it be having a long distance marriage?

I thought it was easy but it isn’t. Everyday, when I wake up in the morning, I think about my husband who is supposed to wake up next to me. I missed the mornings we spent before he went back to Jakarta, we kissed and hugged and said “good morning, sayang” into each other’s ears.

Now we must hold ourselves back.

I am counting down to the day I finally can move to Jakarta, following him. Home now is where my husband is and I have to wait for 4 weeks to go to be able to go home.

Lam is such an amazing and loving husband. I’m so thankful having him as my life partner. I know he’s not perfect but he’s trying to be one.

He has found a rented house for us to live in Jakarta. At the moment, he’s moving in and starting to clean up every corner of the room. He has told me his plans how to manage the house so we can live there comfortably. He always says, “Be patient, we will try to furnish the house one by one. I can’t do it at once”,

I hope everything is going well for us. Bless us God.


Marriage Life Episode One

Been a while not to post anything in this journal entry.
Right now, I’m sitting here on the ceramic floor in my husband’s bedroom at his house. We just arrived this afternoon after visiting many places around town to take care about unfinished wedding business; bridal, wedding gown and flowers, paying this and that. Tomorrow he’s going to fly back to Jakarta leaving me here until December; I’m moving, too!

It’s been 5 days since last Friday, since our “akad nikah”, the day when we officially are husband and wife. Big changes happened. I still have to get use to be a wife. Learn how to be a good one. Learn how to satisfy my husband, learn how to prepare his necessity, learn how to make him happy, learn how to be more patient, learn how to act a real wife.

My husband is super nice to me. He is loving, caring, silly, handsome, and super kind. He doesn’t know everything but he accepts input and opinion if it makes sense. He is reliable and I don’t even know what his flaws so far. Perhaps, we will have arguments someday. Perhaps, he will be furious because of something. Perhaps, he will make me cry. However, I hope nothing would be too hard to compromise and we will always have each other’s back.

Actually, there’s a looot of things I want to write about mymarriagelife here but right now, he needs his Macbook back to work on some video editing. So, see you soon!

Currently, I’m living my happy life with my husband.

Renting a House

Rasanya tidak percaya kalau kurang dari 2 minggu lagi (12 hari lagi tepatnya), saya akan menjadi istri seseorang.

Istri seseorang.

I can’t believe myself I’m going to be someone’s wife.

Lam, can you believe it?

Kita berdua akan menjadi pasangan suami istri. Tinggal bersama di satu atap, makan sama-sama, tidur sama-sama dan memutuskan masa depan kita bersama-sama. Jika Allah SWT mengizinkan, kita akan menjadi orangtua dari anak-anak kita.

After we’re married, in this end of a year I will move to Jakarta. I’m going to say goodbye to my family and friends and also all my life in Makassar. You and I are going to live in a rent house near your office.

Our life will be totally different. I’m excited and terrified as well.

Lam, you’re going to be my husband. You are going to be the answer of the unsolved mystery that has been haunting me since my mid 20s.