Good Partner

As a good partner, I should understand and be patient when he’s busy in hospital. I mean really busy he can’t even call or reply even one text/ chat. I should understand when his girl friend comes to town and he asked permission to spend days with her. Like he did last weekend. 

I lost my weigh these last six months due to my depression. Nobody knows about the reason. Everytime Mom or Akbar or my friends ask, I only say: I don’t have appetite to eat. Mom say I have lost half of my body. 

Akbar is concern,too. He puts attention to my weigh now. Everytime he calls, he reminds me to eat much. Last night we met he said he has the special programme.
“I want to gain your weigh! I will treat you eating delicious food so you will be fat again!” 

I laughed. I okayed him.

How sweet of him really. 
His family is coming next week and he asked me to meet them. 


The City

I got an offer to work out of town, to be an editor in a national media. It excited me, really. However, unfortunately I said no. 

I can’t leave Makassar again. I don’t want to. 

Years ago, I wanted to go out from this city so much. Every place somehow reminded me of the memories I want to forget. 

But then I came back and I met Akbar and I turned to love this city so much. My family is here either. My Mom also forbids me to leave home before I get marry. 

I start to make beautiful memories here and make it as homey as I could.  

Ah, anyway, I am going to teach again on Monday! It’s a small office in Haji Bau Street, near Wisma Kalla. Different challenge, different place. 

Allah knows best. 


The Best Feeling

One of the best feeling in the world is when you missed someone so much and you got a chance to hug and hold his hand. 

K came to my house this evening. He brought me my favorite Mi Titi, a pack of Dancow milk and my favorite chocolate, Chic Choc Delfi. 

He said hello, long time no see and all I did was hugging him. I missed him. We were like having a long distance relationship while in fact we live only 5 kilometres apart. 

He was so busy in hospital. 

And our meeting was only last in less than 5 minutes. We haven’t seen each other in 2 months and when we met, it took only 5 minutes. 

He was rushed to be back to hospital. 

When he wanted to be back, I hugged him and kissed his shoulder and he promised to see me again in 2 days. I didn’t want to put my expectation high because I knew he couldn’t sometimes keep his promise. Especially when it comes to set our meeting schedule.  

He was so busy in hospital. 

It won’t be long soon.

Till we meet again


A Man

I’ve been throuuugh this before but this time is ten times harder. 
I try not to text him something stupid every night before I sleep, because I will always regret it in the next morning. 

I am being fake.

I am being dishonest.

to my own self. to my own feeling.

save me now. 
take the feeling out of me.


Food photography – Tips for beginners

These tips are very useful for beginners like me. I am not a chef nor professional photographer so I won’t write much about them in my blog but, I am interested in writing them.

Cooking without Limits

I often get asked photography questions: what camera I use, how to take good photos without a professional camera, etc. Everything  in this post comes after a few years of taking photos and making lots of mistakes, but learning from most all of them (Sometimes you repeat the same mistake).

  • Lighting – For a good photography you will need good lighting. Start with natural light at your window sill; turn off all artificial light and don’t use your flash. Just see how beautifully the sunlight comes in. If the light is too strong, add a diffuser, such as a white curtain, to soften the light. If taking pictures during the day doesn’t work for your schedule (as it often doesn’t with mine) then I’d suggest investing in some lighting gear. Do not use your built-in flash. Ever!  Don’t feel confined to taking photos in your kitchen. Move around to see…

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Frying Peyek Udang


I fried Peyek Udang this morning for breakfast and I want to share how to make it here. 

You will need:

  • 1,5 cups of flour
  • 3 garlics
  • 1 onion
  • a spoonful of pepper
  • cooking oil
  • Shrimp (as many as you like)
  • 1/4 spoonful turmeric
  • 1/2 spoonful of salt
  • 1/2 glass of water

How to make it:

  • Mash garlic, onion and pepper and mix them together 
  • In a bowl, mix the shrimps with the mashed herbs above. 
  • Add water
  • Add flour
  • Add turmeric and salt
  • Mix them together
  • Heat the cooking oil 
  • Fry them 

Easy right? 


Here are the step by step pictures. 

Happy cooking! 




Cooking Sayur Lodeh Tumis

Seriously, I could make an account on and share all my recipe there. Hahaha. 
Today I cooked this Sayur Lodeh Tumis. I don’t know how to call it in English. 

Mom taught me. 
First, mash 2 onions, 3 garlics with some pepper (a spoonful will be okay). 
Heat some cooking oil and stir-fry the mashed onions garlics pepper for one minute until the colour changes. 

Add the chopped-lodeh into the pan. 

In a different pot, stew some shrimps (its head only)  with 2 glasses of water for around 10-15 minutes. 

Using the strainers, add the stewed-head shrimp-water to the pan. Leave the head shrimp (don’t add it also to the pan)
Add some salt

Keep cooking until the lodeh is tender. Add some water if necessary. 

And this is it! 

Happy cooking!