The Weird Thing About Relationship

We always hope that it will last. But it doesn’t. The weird thing is, no matter how awful our last trial, we will always try to get the courage to begin again, to start over again, to have the trial and error with a completely different person once more. 

It is hurtful when we know that we are not worthed to fight for till the end. Yet, we still high our hope that maybe if it didn’t work with A, it might work with B. And then, the same pattern happens once again. Then we start to believe, maybe, we are too awful for everyone, we are not deserve to be loved. 

In fact, you are. 

So, it’s time now to make yourself in peace, Ri. Forgive him whoever has hurted you, taken you for granted, cheated on your trust. 

Because love is that weird. And there must be someone out there who will love you unconditionally, who wants to say “Agree” to all your Terms and Conditions, to love you hard with all his heart, and to marry you, and gives you nothing but love and happiness. 



Happy Birthday Riana

Happy birthday to myself! Another year has passed successfully. Life is hard and 28 years old living it seems a natural achievement, don’t you think?

So, thank you God. For giving me so much things I can’t count. 

My life is blessed. I have friends who love me. I have a boyfriend whom I adore and loves me back. I still have a family who live in a big house, full of food. I am healthy, beautiful and smart. I am a Muslim. I don’t have difficulties to access water and sunlight. 

I am not living in a war like one third of people are living now in their country. 

Lastly but not least, I am sure that Allah SWT and Rasulullah SAW are always by my side. 

Then, what do I need more? 

Life has been given me enough. I am thankful and I am so excited for the year ahead. 



Pertanyaan yang paling sering menggerogoti otakku adalah tentang nasib manusia. 
Kenapa Tuhan ada orang yang gampang sekali begitu jalan hidupnya seakan-akan tanpa rintangan, tanpa kesulitan, lempeeeeng muluuuuus begitu hidupnya. When they want something, they don’t need to wait too long till it’s achieved. 

Trus kenapa juga ya Tuhan, ada juga orang yang susaaah sekali pas mau sesuatu, lamaa sekali harus dulu bekerja keras berusaha banting tulang, ditolak sana sini, dihantam sana sini baru ada titik terang. 
Kenapa begitu ya Tuhan? Rasanya susah sekali memahami hukum nasib sebab tidak ada rumus default yang orang lain bisa lakukan. 

Kenapa ya Tuhan?



katanya, liat sekarang, yang kaya itu Cina, nanti mereka akan menguasai Indonesia. Pribumi lah yang bekerja untuk Cina. 
Tapi lalu kupikir, lah di Makassar itu pengusaha terbesar adalah Kalla. Trus ada CT, yang punya Trans, dan mengakuisisi Carrefour, juga orang superkaya. Mereka bukan Cina. Mereka adalah orang yang bekerja keras. Jadi, kaya itu tidak mengenal etnis. Sukses tidak melihat etnismu apa. Kalau kamu mau kerja keras ya kamu akan sukses. Kenapa sih susah sekali berpikir kesitu? 
Kalau kita mau saja sedikit berpikir, sedikiit saja. Kita mungkin akan susah tertipu berita palsu. Kita tidak akan gampang menyama-nyamakan Firaun dengan Ahok sebab analoginya sama sekali berbeda. Kita tidak begitu saja percaya saat ada yang bilang Prof Taruna Ikrar mencela Ahok dan pendukungnya punya kelainan otak. Just because there is a lot of news supporting your opinion, doesn’t mean they are all true and needn’t to be confirmed at the first place. Please use your brain, because you have one.